A Wild October has Appeared!

11:12 AM

Yeah i know, i left this blog space for more than a year. Not what i was planning but i'm here now.

UPDATE!
  1. I'm in my 5th semester now, and totally dropped my CGPA.
  2. I'm currently (partly) in-charge of our social media.
  3. I think my financial saving plans is still going down the drain.
  4. That goes with my weight too. Yeah still the same.
  5. I'm currently out of my longterm relationship. And it has been probably up to almost a year now.
  6. Eldest cousin is getting married in December.
Let's split this thing up!
Part Time Study
My previous semester felt like hell because there was so many assignments PLUS we had a lot of events! I wanted to cry. I think it was probably one of the messiest semester i've ever had to go through. I only have to take 3 subjects for my current semester, so i think i can try aiming for all As. Insya-allah.

My Weight
MAN, i keep gaining and losing and gaining my weight again! I looked good in July, but now i'm a fat ass again. I have to lose all these weight within 2 month. God please help me.

Book
Not reading anything at the moment. Couldn't care less of anything haha.

Biggest Achievement
Well i went traveling a lot this year, Korea and Kuching. Happiest as i can be. I would say that my life has started to slowly become as active as i want it to be. Met new people and was able to go to different places. Too many things had happen but i genuinely think i'm happy and free. And growing up a lot.

Financial Savings
Ok i'm not at total loss. I managed to save for Korea and Kuching. And i'm still able to save money for savings. Other than that, i'm totally broke now. HAHA.

Self Reflect
A lot of people said i've changed a lot, compare from last year. And yea i do think there's a bit of truth there. But then, i still think i have a lot of things i still need to work with myself. I think i'm more chilled and optimistic now. A little bit of confidence and aggressiveness, compare to how i was last year. Dealing with the break up probably wasn't as worst as i would imagine. It was more of a relief that now i get to be free and grow up to be however i wanted to be. I took a lot of risks at the first moment i had with freedom. Have i regretted anything? Not really. I think you wouldn't live life if you haven't live it to the fullest.

Now i'm just allergic to anything that restrain me from doing things i want to do. The moment you say No, is the moment that i know i can't trust you. It's so funny. I'm so scared of being held back now. I just want to do my own thing on my own decision. I think years of being controlled and told that i wasn't capable of doing anything on my own, has now made me retaliate. I'm genuinely happy.

Goodnight.

September Blues

7:21 AM

Procrastinating at it's finest, this is why i was away for two months. Actually no, i was pure busy with work. It was our semester break though, which was amazing. But registration day for semester 3 is this Saturday, ugh.

 UPDATES!
Ngeh.



Part Time Study
Going to my 3rd semester this month. Am i ready to go back to weekend school? Hell no. Result was okay though. Okay as in, couldn't done better. Hopefully i'll ace this semester. Please God be beside me.

No more group presentations please.

My Weight
Went to medical check up to find that i am currently weighing 52kg. That's such a sad result, cause i was 53kg in January haha. So much for wanting abs man. Result for Medical check up was okay too, everything normal.

Book
Have yet to start reading any book.

Biggest Achievement
I think Sports Day should be my biggest achievement and also that i managed to join Futsal team. But i'm such a loser at sports i tell you. I'm not even proud of any haha.




Oh wait, i did kinda prank my boss during her birthday. And she almost died. We wrapped her whole office with newspaper. How thoughtful.

I also got the experience of going to Dinner in the Sky. I am super afraid of heights. So this was super challenging for me. I couldn't even eat properly. But still one awesome experience!


Financial Savings
Dying. Not looking well. Already broke in 2 weeks after gaji.

Self Reflect
Such challenging time now, a lot of ups and downs at work. But i found that i need to be calm during tough storms, or pretend to be calm. That's the only time when i get things done faster and with quality. And i have to be emotionless, especially when facing certain people. Work is work. Nothing should be personal. People can say things about you, but only God can truthfully judge you. So, that's that.

LOOKING FORWARD TO
Another vacation. Please?

July Pry

3:00 PM

Just got back from KL on Thursday night. Still tired, still wanting to have longer holidays. I wish i could have the whole month off, but that'll just be crazy. Not.

I am broke AF. Like so broke, i couldn't even go to lunch today. And i don't even wanna bother haha. I don't want to sleep because i don't have much alone time nowadays. I need my alone time. Just a quiet hour where it's just me, myself and i. Nothing beats that.


I lost about 2-3kg during Ramadan Puasa, i kid you not. But face is bloated as hell. I think too much Sodium when we were in KL. I love KL. Not because of the busy life, but more because it's so different than KK. It's always nice to get away from something you're always used to. I hope to go further next year, have to save money though. Which i am bad at.

I think i would love to explore more about writings. My previous semester was all about writing and i felt like dying haha. And i think it's always an opportunity whenever my bosses ask me to write something. I've wrote small reviews and articles before, ain't that something. I've never boasted about it because my mentally at that time was just to chase deadlines. But when i think about it, DAMN i wrote something for a magazine. KEWL.

July onwards will be very busy for me, i hope i can survive this. I'm still in holiday mode btw.

Midnight Thoughts

11:00 AM

My June post is in draft because i got busy and stopped. But now i'm having a hard time continuing it. This is the reason why i never get things done haha. I always hate doing things half way. I hate going back to it cause the mood becomes different and all inspirations would disappear.

So where am i in life right now?
I think i'm still a confused kid. I'm using the term kid because i'm just that immature. I can't make decisions on my own, i listen to people's opinions too much and i'm not mean enough to say No. I don't like being fussy, that's one thing. I don't like to make it hard for other people. But then again it doesn't help with my team building skills nor leadership skills. I'm always in trouble because i don't speak up. Which is true. But how do you speak up when most of the people around you are seniors. I don't really get how that works yet. I have to make myself comfortable around people.

I'll be going through very rough months soon, so many events and things to do. School is starting to be difficult, i hope my grades don't drop.

Oh well, that's all for now.

Meh May

10:39 AM

YES I KNOW! I MISSED OUT BOTH MARCH AND APRIL! I swear it is not on purpose! So... here's what happened.

 I have different passwords for different social medias. So because there's so many, i would write it down on my "secret" book. Long story short, i lost the book. For 2 months. Yape yape. Mum finally found it. Yes, MUM. Only she knows where to find things that are lost in the house!

 Anyhow, enough yapping.
So UPDATES!

  1. I have moved into a different department in early April.
  2. But sadly i now have 4 different bosses to go through, including our GM.
  3. There's a lot of work, but somehow i'm working faster here. I guess it's because i'm less pressured. FOR NOW.
  4. I'm doing writes up too. Luckily only a little.
  5. I screwed hard on my Japanese quiz, midterm AND oral test, cause i didn't study at all. SADLY.
  6. My financial saving plans are going down the drain. Definitely. XD
  7. That goes with my weight too. STILL, SORRY.
Split splat
Part Time Study
As said previously, this is a long semester. BUT dear God, the assignments are crazy a lot.

Too many writing assignments AND group assignments. I'm starting to get pissed off with group assignments because it's super hard to deal with the kids that don't even give af about effort. Almost died, i tell you. Didn't have enough sleep for almost a month because of these double workloads.

My Weight
Let's weight ourselves, shall we? 53 kg................ So i didn't lose nothing... DAMMN...

Book
I'm still with my notes and textbook. I have a sad life.

Biggest Achievement
Well, my t-shirt design finally came out early May and it took of quite well. SADLY, something went wrong with the papers that were supposed to be approved by the admin. It's not looking well.

Financial Savings
Still in the drain. Just when you thought you were doing well. Your money went missing hahah. Oh well, try harder!

Self Reflect
I need to do well with work. I'm starting to show my sloppiness. I'm doing a lot of things but at the same time, i'm taking way too much time doing it. While my colleague is able to finish her task in a day. I'm taking a week. I'm so lazy. I need to focus.

LOOKING FORWARD TO
SEMESTER BREAK! And Raya. :)

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